What past pressure are you still feeling?
This week I had what can only be described as a ‘Thought-gasm’, it was so good my head almost fell off!
Let me explain! So I have been self-employed for a decade and my first business was in network marketing. I was really good at it and for a long time, I loved it!
I will be eternally grateful for that opportunity as I would not be where I am without it!
However one of the things I didn’t love about it is the feeling that I had to be constantly ‘on-it’! Meaning it seemed there was a direct correlation between my activity and my teams.
The way my company worked is that I was paid a commission by the company on the turnover of my team, which is awesome but if I lost my mojo for a bit or something in my life happened that took me off the ball then that would show up in my income!
At the time I never understood it, now I know that is was just about energy…If mine was up so was everybody else’s….GOOD TIMES! If mine was off….so was everybody else’s…BAD TIMES!
While that business still brings me in a decent income, I haven’t been actively building it for over 3 years.
Now I do this! I am a coach and the founder of a growing personal development membership site called BECOMING HER.
I don’t have to rely on a team, no-one else is in control of my income accept me.
We are moving house in the next 4 weeks so this week my mind was on other things…as the day progressed I started to feel anxious, a feeling of foreboding overwhelmed me. I have felt this feeling many times before…
“What the fuck is this feeling”
I rang a friend I told her about my familiar feeling…she said
“Do you think its a network marketing hangover?”
BOOM!!!!! THAT’S IT!
You see when I was building my NMB I thought about it ALL THE TIME. If I didn’t it seemed to have a direct effect on my income. That fear was obviously still hanging around…
The truth now is… I THRIVE NO MATTER WHAT!
I get to choose when and how I show up without any fear.
I get to show up because I LOVE what I do, not out of fear and lack that if I don’t it all going to fall apart!
Can you relate?
- So ask yourself this, do you have past pressures showing up today?
- What are you telling yourself that just isn’t true about what you have to DO in order to succeed?
I love you! Have a great weekend!